"falling down is a part of life, getting back up is living"

Tuesday, January 28, 2014

right time, right place

I have a very strong opinion about everything in life happening for a reason. I have been through some hard things, and some amazing things... and all of those experiences have been for a reason. I don't doubt that for a second.
What I have also come to realize is that people are carefully placed in our lives at certain times and in certain places. My life has been VERY much blessed by people around me. I have had the opportunity to make some of the greatest friends in my life. Best Friend isn't an actual person... Its a level. I have several best friends, and I can't imagine where I would be without all of these people.
I love these people. They have all been crucial to me becoming the person I am today and I will never be able to fully express how grateful I am for them and their impact on my life.
Caitlyn came in to my life in 8th grade- a very critical time in my life. I faced so many fears and learned so many valuable lessons with this best friend by my side. We took on high school, dating, driving, elections, graduating, and most importantly...we figured out who we really are, with each other. We survived our awkward jr high phase together, and came up with all kinds of crazy shenanigans. My favorite thing about Caitlyn is that she knows exactly what she wants in life and she is not afraid to go get it. She works her butt off, and makes her dreams a reality. She inspires me to be a better person. I am so grateful for my BF4E!
I met this crazy kid when I was 15 and decided to run against him for student council. Hating someone has never paid off quite like it has with him. If there is one person that knows exactly how to brighten my day and make me laugh... its this guy. I can't imagine who or where I would be if I didn't have the influence of Jonny in my life. We have both grown up and changed and figured life out, but we've never lost each other. I turn to him constantly, and he never lets me down. My favorite thing about Jonny is that he genuinely cares about people, he goes out of his way to help those around him. This guy is the first one to step up when I need something. A laugh, a treat, a blessing, a cry, anything. At the end of the day, he's my best friend. Love you, you crazy!

Holy moly... Where do I begin? This girl changed my life. Until Ash came along, I don't think I had instantly clicked with someone in my life. When I moved to Provo, I lucked out. Ashley knows me better than I know myself. She knows what I want or how I am feeling before I do sometimes. She practically reads my mind. Living with her for 2 years is one of the biggest blessings in my life so far. I became the happy, more confident, crazy, outgoing person that hid inside for a long time because she forced it right out of me. Even though she lives in CA again, we are still so close. She is still the person I call crying, or laughing, or just because life is hard and I need to talk. She calls me just because she wants to talk while we both get ready for church. We share our doubts and our fears, and our accomplishments. I know she has my back as much as I have hers and I love that. She has a huge heart and she will do what it takes to make those around her laugh. My favorite thing about her is that her laugh is insanely contagious....try not laughing when you hear it. Here's a secret, its impossible. Man, oh man, I love my Ashley May!
Oh Katie. Katie, Katie, Katie. Plain and simple, I love Katie. I mean... she loves Mat Kearney, she drives an Xterra, she LOVES dogs, she loves orange. Pretty much we share a brain. Katie is hands down one of the most loving people I have ever met. She deeply cares about those around her. One of the first things I noticed about Katie is that she always goes out of her way to get to know everyone and to be friends with everyone. She is extremely accepting of everyone, and isn't afraid to go out of her comfort zone to include others. She is passionate about life, and it always up for adventure. Adventure is out there!! She loves the gospel, and has a very profound understanding of it. The 2 years I spent in Provo with Katie blessed my life SO much. She taught me so many things and got me through some tough times and I am so grateful for her example. My favorite thing about Katie is that we share a love of note writing. Coming home to a note delivered on my bed, under my door, on my car, on the fridge, etc are memories that I will have forever. I love you Kathy!!

Erica is one of a kind, and I love her for that. I met Erica my first Sunday at the singles ward I go to in Lehi. I was very nervous about the ward, but I got to know her fairly quickly. I joke that I forced my way into her life... but I think I really kinda did. Erica is always going out of her way to meet new people, she is very welcoming to those around her. People naturally gravitate to her because she makes them feel at ease. She is hilarious and keeps me laughing. She is never afraid to speak her mind, and will call you out on anything. She keeps me on my toes and there is never a dull moment. Erica HATES to plan things, but she does it anyways because when it comes down to it... she really is the center of attention. ;) She is very driven and determined. We love to have fun and be "so funny and popular", but we also love to wear pajamas and watch movies. I mean... she has her own pjs and a toothbrush at my house! My favorite thing about Erica is that she pretty much always has a smile on her face. She laughs like a dolphin and it is highly entertaining.

I love you guys!! Thanks for being such a huge part of my life.

Sunday, January 5, 2014

2014 Resolutions

Its a few days late, but here we go.
1. Go to the Temple! Get a new temple recommend and use it well. My temple buddy of choice is moving to NY in May.... time to take advantage of the time I have left.
2.Get skinny again! Run, even when it hurts or I feel lazy. Be healthy, not anorexic again. Eat right. Don't drink soda. Work hard.
3. Pay my tithing after every paycheck. Don't let myself get behind.
4.Get more sleep. I am giving myself a curfew.
12:00 on work nights.
1:30 on weekends.
(^yep, I have learned that the BYU honor code indeed exists for a good reason!)
5. Pray more.
6. Be a happy person. Smile, laugh, and quit stressing about the small things.
7. Save money!! Quit wasting money eating out (Which goes hand in hand with #2) especially for lunch. Take lunches to work or go home and eat. Shop for deals, put money towards my car.
8. Study the scriptures more.
9. Be a good friend. Distance means nothing, go out of my way to do things for others, quit relying on others so much, stay close to those who have been around the longest, make an effort to be friends with people who have hurt me. Be the type of friend that always has people's backs... that is what I need in people.
10. Stay passionate about BYU. I refuse to let what others think stop me from doing what I love. BYUhoops baby!! I'm back and I can't be stopped.
11. Listen to music. It is my passion. It makes me happier than most things and is a very important part of my life.
12. Be an awesome employee/staff member. Do whatever I need to do with a good attitude. Stay on top of ordering/shopping. Do it with a smile on my face.
13. Cut way, way back on social medias. They ruin everything.
14. Become a dedicated journal writer and/or blogger. Writing things out is the best way to express myself. At some point, someone is going to want to know what I was up to and what I was thinking.
15. Travel. Go on at least 2 trips with friends in addition to any trips with my family.
16. Be Spontaneous.
17. Trust in The Lord. Don't just wear the ring on my finger... DO IT!
18. Branch out more... BE FEARLESS.
19. Serve more. There is absolutely nothing that makes me happier than serving. Find ways to do it!!
20. Stay on top of my room/apartment/house/wherever I end up this year. Messy space makes me more stressed.
21. Be organized. Use my planner.
22. Remember to always say thank you. Especially to my parents.
23. Trust people easier, but quit giving my heart away so easily.
24. Go on dates for fun.
2014... Bring it on.

goodbye 2013, hello 2014

Sure... I will just take a year and a half break from blogging. Seems like a good idea. So where do I even begin?

2013 was quite the year:
Ashley graduated from BYU and moved back to California. Honestly, I still struggle with that daily.
Katie married Talon. What the? The world is too small. They are probably the cutest couple though.
Melea just married Ben... Like 2 days ago.
When Ash moved out, Brittny moved in. We hit it off pretty quickly. 
I flew to CA to help Ash drive back to UT. We made guacamole in the car... We never cease to amaze ourselves.
Went to Vegas for the WCC basketball tournament.
My parents built their dream home in Lehi.
Made friends with the guys working on the house. Probably enjoyed them too much.
Our awesome builder asked my parents to let him use their new home as his parade of homes house.
Worked the parade of homes. Never again.
We moved out of our Orem house, and moved in to the Lehi house.
I left Provo and moved to Lehi (with every intention of returning a month or two later).
I became very close with my best friend Jonny again.
I went to CA to spend a week camping on the beach with Ashley and her family. I nearly froze to death, but it was still so worth it.
Saw The Script and Train in Irvine.
I started going to a YSA ward in Lehi, decided it wasn't so bad, and decided to stick it out.
Made a bunch of friends in Lehi and thought less and less about going back to Provo.
Saw Muse AND Josh Groban in SLC.
Became pretty much best friends with Miss Erica Gurney.
Flew to California to surprise Ashley for her birthday. Her reaction to this day is one of my favorite memories. "What? What are you doing here!?"
Almost died of laughter dragging Shingo through Knott's Scary Farm.
Tried to trade my car in for a Jetta, but burst into tears at the dealership and left with my Xterra.
Partied hard for Halloween with a bunch of Wardies.
My sister/twin had her little girl. Avery has my heart.
Spent Thanksgiving with my whole family.
Dated a pretty cool guy for a little bit.
Spent New Years Eve in Richfield. I am the queen on being spontaneous these days.
..... and I'm still in Lehi.


2014 has some big shoes to fill, but I don't doubt for a second that it will be even better than 2013.
2013, despite all of the hard times... you were really, really good to me.


Monday, September 3, 2012

alright, i'm back

It feels like it has been forever since I have posted, probably because it has been. A lot has happened since last time.

1. I no longer live at UAC.
Several months ago (after resigning a contract) I recieved a phone call telling me that my contract had been voided and that my rent was being raised 90 dollars a month. They said we had the first option to resign, but Ashley and I took that as our cue to move on in the world and try something new. After one of the most stressful days I have had in a long time, and seeing many different apartments, (hitting my head into someone's window trying to creep on their apartment, etc) we headed to a place called Summerlynn. I found this place online and had thought about looking at it multiple times. Well, we liked it. We didn't love it like we loved The Village (the place all the "cool kids" live these days) but it just felt right. So we called the landlord and signed contracts the same day.

A little while later I was talking to a girl in our ward named Melea. I went out on a limb and invited her to live with us. She thought about it, and decided it was a great idea. She was able to get out of the contract she had and sign with us. Through all of this I was talking to Katie all the time. I kept telling her how bad I wished we were living together and she felt the same. After a lot of consideration and debating, she got out of her contract as well and signed for our same apartment.

Did you get that!? I am living with my best friend, the best roommate I have ever had, and a great friend from our fhe group. Is this real life? Yes. The answer is YES. We are officially roommates and having a blast. I literally love all 3 of these girls so much. They are some of the biggest blessings that have come into my life. Melea and I have spent a lot of time together this week, and let me tell you... She is great! I have this feeling we are gonna be reeeeal good friends.

2. I survived what I thought would be the longest summer of my life.
Ya know what is the worst part about having a bunch of friends from out of Utah? When summer rolls around they ALL leave. I started saying "goodbye" to people in April. There was not a single time I enjoyed saying it. It was rough for me. Then came June. In June I spent my 22nd birthday in Oregon. (It was a blast! but we will save that for later) When I came back I had to face my worst goodbyes. Ashley was off to California for the summer, and for an adventure in Korea for a few weeks. Guys. I have lived with her since last August. This girl knows me better than I know myself sometimes. To make it even worse, Katie left for all of July to Australia, Fiji, and New Zealand. Katie is my best friend.

To say I struggled with them both leaving me is an understatement. Pretty sure I sat in my empty apartment staring at the walls. (this may or may not be true... you decide.) I had a very interesting situation at my apartment that involved a girl living there without signing a contract, and also spare keys being handed out to boys. So at that point I took myself home and lived with my parents for a month. I love my parents so much. They are amazing people and do the most amazing things for me. That being said, it was a major adjustment being back at home.

Before I knew it July was over and Katie was back. And then just like that it was time to move in here. Katie and I moved in and were all settled when Melea and Ashley finally came back the next day. On top of that, ALL of my friends are back. Moral of the story: People come back, and friendships can last a summer apart. haha this girl is happy.

3. and they lived happily ever after, etc
Two of my best friends from high school got married. TWO! Punky and Cody are married! I still have a hard time believing it, but it is the truth. 2 of my 3 favorite boys in the world are married. And now for the etc. You can expect some catching up on this blog of mine. I have many adventures to discuss. But here is a sneak peak- st george roadtrip, angels landing, birthday in oregon, penguining takes 1 2 and 3, mat kearney 2.0, cabin trips, byu football, meet the roomies/pimping out my roommates, the apartment, races, office pictures, and much much more.

Thursday, May 10, 2012

"what a difference a day makes, I turned and watched you walk away"

Once upon a time, there was this really cool girl named Katie that lived across the hall from me. She was the first person in my ward that made me feel like this is where I belonged. We started to hang out, and really quickly became great friends. I would definitely consider her one of my very closest friends. One night at FHE I asked her if she happened to like Mat Kearney. She said she loved him. I told her he was coming in concert, and we decided right then and there we were going.
To say I love that girl would be a huge understatement.
And to say we share a ridiculously crazy love of Mat Kearney would be an even bigger understatement.

So... We went to the concert. And It was the best night of my life.
 So Happy!

 We were legitimately this close!

We have videos of the best moment of our lives (he came into the audience and jumped up and down WITH us. oh yeah, we touched him!) but alas, blogger won't let me open them.

I love Katie.
I love Mat.

Monday, February 20, 2012

sunday funday

Yesterday was a really, really great day. I have absolutely fallen in love with Sunday's lately. My good friend Katie calls them "Sunday Funday" and it is so true. Yesterday I invited Caitlyn to come to my ward and to come sing at the nursing home with me. She brought another friend and we all went and sang at the nursing home. I decided last week that I wanted to start going singing with people from my ward, and it was one of the best decisions I could have made. It is an amazing experience.
Church yesterday was incredible. Every speaker in sacrament meeting was amazing and said things that I really needed to hear. Right in the middle of the meeting I was sitting there thinking about my life. I had my fantastic roommate and friend to my left and my best friend to my right. Everywhere I looked I saw someone in my ward that I have learned to absolutely love. It was then that I realized just how happy I am, and how good life it going for me right now. It was right then that it really hit me that this is EXACTLY where I am supposed to be right now. I have said it before, but moving to this apartment literally scared me to death. It took me a while to really put myself out there and actually get to know people and make some new friends. Once I finally started, my life changed. There are some incredible people in my ward, and I am lucky to call a lot of them my friends.
I'm still figuring things out, and I still have a long road ahead of me. I am excited about it all. I am excited that I have opened my eyes, and stopped living for what I thought I wanted for so long. I love my job and I am so grateful for it. My classes are a lot of work, but I am also loving them. Things are just good. I am right where I am supposed to be, and doing what I'm supposed to be doing.
I left church on such a high and went to dinner as happy as can be. I came back to my apartment to meet with my awesome visiting teachers, who are also some good friends. Then went to ward prayer, and then game night. I. Love. Game. Night. I never dreamed that we would have so much fun playing the same games over and over. We played several games and talked and laughed for hours. I am so grateful for every single person that was in my apartment last night. They are so much fun and they make me so happy. I look forward to those nights because I know I will end up on the floor laughing multiple times. I'm super sad that I will miss two sundays in a row, but I'm way excited to get back to them.

I love Sundays.
I love my ward and my new and old friends.

Sunday Funday!

Thursday, February 16, 2012


Today was the first day of the Utah Dental Association Convention in SLC. Brinley, Jamie, Callie, and I went to a class all about Passions. It was really interesting and got me thinking.
He had us make a list of 10 passions to starts. He asked the question "What would you do every day even if you never got paid" Here is the list I came up with.

 He asked out of the audience how many wrote down something dental related. I was happy to be one of the MAYBE 20 in the huge ballroom full of people that could raise my hand.

And, If you have ever been in a class with me you know I can't go a minute without drawing something ridiculous on my notes. Here is just one delightful drawing. They talked about the Titanic and how we can sink our team. That lead to the 4 of us becoming part of the titanic in my mind. Which lead to a hilarious comment and me bursting into tears while laughing so hard.
I'm glad I got to spend all day with these 3, and a lot of time with the Bossman. They are great people and bring out the best in me.

Wednesday, February 8, 2012

yep... I love this kid.